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2006-07-08T13:23:13Z

"i see you are both enjoying your saturday" --> mag to mar and i.

what were we doing? studying.

hm.

anyway we were all putting on inai at nyai's place. the older ones were lazily putting on for everyone while the kids were giggling at the thought of putting it on themselves.

i remember we were like that once. so amused at having this orange things on our fingers. then we touch and hold things weirdly. as if our orange things will go off at the contact of it with something else. just like how kids wear lipstick.

anyhows.

looking at these pictures are sweet but little did we know that was our last performance to be staged (technically speaking).
manifestasi 2006 : khilaf : segesit detik/segenap usia : a dream unfulfilled.

things happen for a reason. we will know soon (:

oceantruth @ 2006-07-07T07:54:00

2006-07-06T23:56:21Z

friday mornings are always worth it to spend with your friends (: es[ecially when you know one level above, others are slaving away at maths.

well. after the announcement later, i guess its all over. other than one more event, we've completed our task. lets just pretend the idea was never there.

oceantruth @ 2006-07-06T21:41:00

2006-07-06T13:53:35Z

okay so the results are out.

anyway many have been crazy over highschoolmusical tunes. its just catchy la (:

alright im so not looking forward to mlep tmr.

oceantruth @ 2006-07-06T09:56:00

2006-07-06T01:59:33Z

"OW MY DICK! eh no. i dont have a dick" -> faz.

yeah thats what she said yesterday while cycling.

anyway. remember this excerpt from my entry yesterday?

"beach+weekdays+almostnoone=perfectmakingout for teenagers.

or so they thought. sorry you two, we had to be right there while you were sucking your girl's tits. alahai, dah tau ader orang, janganlah buat depan kita eh? kita tak buta. kalau korang sexy couple pun takper jugak. dua-dua slenger. pakai school uniform. melayu pulak tu. adeyyy, malu la. and the best thing? your friends were waiting nearby. kesiankan la dorang, kener tunggu korang habes motek.

"sedap tetek?" oh god. that was so damn hilarious.

yeah and we had to be sitting in the same bus as them on the way home. and of course, hormones raging got them making out again in the bus. HAIYAH EYESORE YOU KNOW. IF SEXY NEVERMIND. "

well well. i just got news from dada and firda that yesterday they were at the busstop when a bus went past. lo and behold, in the bus, they saw the SAME couple. the girl lying down on the guy's lap (apparently) and when the guy saw them, he hid his face.

ah tau pun malu.

gimme some love

2006-07-05T14:25:58Z

just came back (relatively) from the beach. it was so so great with them. of course, th elunch date before was nice as well.

so anyway whatdidwedo. watched xmen and i had to endure marya and am cussing wolverine to be a 'horny bastard!'. well they just hate him for lusting over jeangrey and all. and they believe he likes naecrophaelia (however you spell it). thereafter it was cycling. and so we climbed the spiderwebs, spin on the circle thing, cycled. and talked and talked and talked. marya and firda tried teaching faz to ride a bike to no avail (i think). i tried to ride a tandem with dilah but hell, it was hard being in front. i thought it was so easy! and sitting at the back totally constricts my legs. i kept brushing against dilah's butt so it was a hilarious sight. sigh.

and of course. who can forget the oh-so-turning-on incident there.

beach+weekdays+almostnoone=perfectmakingout for teenagers.

or so they thought. sorry you two, we had to be right there while you were sucking your girl's tits. alahai, dah tau ader orang, janganlah buat depan kita eh? kita tak buta. kalau korang sexy couple pun takper jugak. dua-dua slenger. pakai school uniform. melayu pulak tu. adeyyy, malu la. and the best thing? your friends were waiting nearby. kesiankan la dorang, kener tunggu korang habes motek.

"sedap tetek?" oh god. that was so damn hilarious.

yeah and we had to be sitting in the same bus as them on the way home. and of course, hormones raging got them making out again in the bus. HAIYAH EYESORE YOU KNOW. IF SEXY NEVERMIND.

anyhows. a big thank you to the kpotters for having me there at their thingy just now (: cheered me up to no end. thank you darlings mwah (:

so yeah. met him and had a nice ride home thereafter. now im just wishing that tmr's school is cancelled. lee+wee=HORROR.

so anyway. did i mention i love the esplanade toilets?

well there you go. the toilets. no matter how many times i get into that toilet i still dont get sick of it.

what started as a "yanto! take picture with me!" (by me) resulted with about four kepo people in the picture as well.
i guess they are not called kpotters for nothing.

my dates for the evening (:

well marya got her wish to take pictures with her yang (:
i think isk was pretty traumatised hahaha

1) mar and yana (: yana is so gorgeous now
2) izzah and i. forgive our weird faces. its this weird ambience that izzah exudes.
3) the trenchcoatgirl and i (:
4) i like this pic! (self explanatory for the person next to me. she's EVERYWHERE)

and of course,

(: 9th coming soon <3

//hold me close to your heart
i would go with you to the ends of the Earth
and we'll fly//

oceantruth @ 2006-07-05T11:08:00

2006-07-05T03:11:04Z

yesterday was panorama and panorama was love.

i was wondering if i was the only dumbshit who would feel proud (rather) of her school but turns out no! many felt the same way. didnt really know our performing arts were superb. okay except for one group (which everyone expected to bad bad anyway. if the seniors last yr performed it, i'll bet it would have been sexysizzlinghot), everyone else were great. i love tarian and dk (who doesnt? dengan karut gelek2).

and did i mention the esplanade concert hall is so ohmygoddamnfucking gorgeous? yeahyeah, my first time there. gimme a break.

and of course, i love the esplanade toilets!

anyway i wanted to put pics but since the image dialog box is being a bitch and im late for a lunchdate, i shall just do it later.

and more dosage of the kpotters later at the beach! lovely haha

oceantruth @ 2006-07-04T14:14:00

2006-07-04T06:17:18Z

oh youre so funny. the things you do, it just turns others on, you know?

hmm.

everyone loves you

2006-07-03T13:50:22Z

alright. im really tired of all this shits. really.

why cant you just get out of my mind. its bad enough all these while. i dont have to have them haunting my brain everytime im happy you know.

and the best thing? noone can ever go against you. noone can ever pinpoint something out about you. noone can ever make you mad or sad. you know why? because you will do whatever you have been doing all this while and the whole world will just comfort you with tissues and sweets and everything nice and make you stronger and urge you to retaliate. i know. we know. the whole world knows.

okay? so since noone can ever fight against you in this world thanks to your charm and beauty, i sincerely hope God will bless you in the afterworld. because i know people who you troubled will make sure they get their revenge then.

and what do you know? revenge is sweet.

but oh no! of course! you are much sweeter, my darling.

now now now. before you start to feel guilty or be angry at me for my pointless entry, check and reflect.

who am i talking about? i certainly didnt state the person's name

do i know this person? hmm.

what gender is this person? male? female? i didnt state (for your info, i sometimes refer to guys as beautiful. they have beauty too you know, if you understand what i mean).

what did this person do? hmm. its not even slightly obvious.

is this person really charming and beautiful or was i being sarcastic?

ah. think of all those before you start fuming and hit the leave a comment icon. and well, as they say, siapa makan lada, terasa pedasnya or in english terms (literally), whoever that did it, will feel the guilt.

and well. i really hope you do feel the guilt. if you dont, well, God bless you, my dear fellow human being. you either have no emotions or no awareness.

oceantruth @ 2006-07-02T12:17:00

2006-07-02T04:21:05Z

here i am with my fruit juice and bread trying to figure out what to do.

anyway! youth day tmr, panorama on tues, holiday on wednesday, two beginning-and-ending of the day lessons, friday's rather short day with manifest practice.

hmm. looks good. lets hope it turns out good and not give me more headaches.

oceantruth @ 2006-06-30T23:32:00

2006-06-30T15:38:57Z

i had updated a whole long entry but i decided to screen it instead so as not to make myself more enemies. its enough that someone else i know has many. poor boy.

so i will just keep those feelings and just forgive you all over again. until maybe one day i will slap your face because its just too much.

anyhows. it was a very draining day today. mentally and emotionally. thank you. im now falling sick, have zits breakout everywhere on my body, a few scars which hurts and i have absolutely no more tears left to cry.

if i were to really type all i have in mind, it will take forever. it will create more anger, sadness, tears and whatnot. i think ill go crazy cos it truly hurts. but more than that, ill have comments about how im stupid or whatever that im just too tired to even think about. because truly, these few days have been absolutely nothing but rubbish and crap.

on a very much lighter note:

yes, thats us. we're are perfectly fine right now. yes, we had a terrible fight, technically we broke up, but now we're together again happily. thats for you people who wanted to know why i came late, looked flustered and pale and whatnot today.

yes, we're happy. and thats one of the greatest gift we can have. Dear God, please do not take that gift away from us. please. thats all im asking for.

oceantruth @ 2006-06-25T18:30:00

2006-06-25T10:33:36Z

anyway i went for rg drama yesterday/was good. i loved jintut/jintat.
and haslina is getting very pretty. the butt haha.

and just now i went to isk's sis wedding. i like the decor.
anyway. met up with daddyhafizmagkhaiizzatilidee.
and i saw the cute kitten! okay sorry lah im still scared of them okay.

and i just cant wait to get out of this fucking shithole and escape somewhere.
anywhere.
just take me away, anyone?

oceantruth @ 2006-06-24T12:58:00

2006-06-24T05:09:14Z

out of curiosity, ive been researching about the origins of sadism and sadomasochism in sexual terms. and hell, its gross.

the term sadism is coined from the person's name Marquis de Sade. a French aristocrat and writer of violent pornography, as well as some strictly philosophical works. he himself indulges in violent sex and orgy.

quotes: "Sex without pain is like food without taste".

taken from Wikipedia.com. and go http://www.channel4.com/history/microsites/M/masters_darkness/desade.html for more stuff.

"de Sade threatened to kill her (Rose Keller) before tying her to a bed and whipping her with a birch branch. He then sliced her buttocks open with a hunting knife and poured wax into the wounds."

WAHH. disgusting man.

so ill cry and ill pray and ill beg

2006-06-23T15:57:07Z

**7 Random Facts about Me**
- i hate going to sleep without my bra.
- all i want is to get married and have children (haha). so why study?
- i just rebonded my fringe! so right now, my hair fucking stinks
- i want a goddamned power new phone which has a freaking camera goddamnit
- i always look forward to reading _hadi and adukibean entries because they always make me laugh till i can cry.
- i either dont shit at all, or get bad diarrhoea
- my birthmark is a patch of hair on my tummy area. rather ugly if you ask me

**7 Things That Scare Me**
- Allah and everything connected to Him
- supernaturals and its likes
- not getting married
- not being able to have children
- lizard. yeuchhh
- angry people
- dogs.

**7 Random Music At The Moment**
- wanna ride (takethelead st)
- la vien en rose
- one last (taufik batisah)
- lovefool
- shania twain's youre still the one i want (shania twain's. now emilee's. yeuch)
- wo yao ni de ai (THANKS NAD for intro-ing me that song. sigh)
- two wrongs

**7 Things I Like The Most**
- buncit (:
- spending time with isk
- eating
- watching sappy movies (yeah yeah im a sob story okay)
- dancing on my own
- talking nonsense to people that i can just waste time with
- smiles

**7 Things I Say The Most**
- whaaatttt
- shut up ah
- you know what!
- quick!
- fuck la
- anyway YAH
- monday talk monday can?

yeah that was for whoever that tagged me. and whoever want to do, just do la. quite hard to come up with things ah. i mean who thinks of seven songs all at once?

ANYWAY YAH. i went for a haircut. so now i have rebonded fringe = the things you call bangs. aaaannnddd my hair fucking stinks thanks to whatever that was used in the process. sial ah. like telur busuk man the smell. when the thing was still on my hair i wanted to die. shahidah forbid me from going near her. and that was only the fringe. gah.

so anyhows. i think i look weird. i think i look like youknowwho from school.

just now i saw feeq! FINALLY! GO CUT YOUR BLOODY HAIR LA YOU SHITASS. SO LONG. but if you dont want to cut also its okay. at most youll get kutu. okay?

oh god hols are over baybeh

oceantruth @ 2006-06-22T09:56:00

2006-06-22T02:36:43Z

eh i just remembered something about primary school. isk, brian and angie were the witches, wendy and justin were romeo and juliet. and that was the point of time where the disgusting eyeballs and fingers in colourful gooey things (in a bottle) were popular.

anyway can you imagine if your son's dick was run over by a huge truck? oww

oceantruth @ 2006-06-21T23:54:00

2006-06-21T15:55:01Z

m. syafiq rahman owes me dunkin donuts

i will be waiting.

get cha head in the game

2006-06-21T15:47:01Z

for the benefit of those who dont know.
the girl in the darker yellow kebaya (top most right, no specs) is my sister.
yelah lawa la budak tu.

anyway. this round of singapore idol is rather crap. just now i think 1st one was good the rest were ...
and meryl meryl (didnt she sing the same song she sang for one of the talentime?)
ah well.
aper2 la korang.
those who get in to be the final 12, i sincerely hope you all will improve as a singer and performer to even come to the standard of taufik man.
bahhh.

studying in bk airport just now was rather amusing.
you just had to look at mar's cramp face to turn ard and expect porn.
ooooh. study la dont make out.
you go out go in so many times what studying did you all do.
irritating you know.

anyway. i really miss this stupid boy you know.
hes featured in the following picture.

yes maggi you probably dont even read my lj you knncb but yaaaa i miss you, you arse.
obviously i miss your girlfriend more (duh, shes more adorable) but yeah you count as well.

and lets end today's entry with a delightful picture:

do not ask me what the hell this girl is doing.

take care all (:

oceantruth @ 2006-06-20T23:15:00

2006-06-20T15:16:54Z

for some reason, taufik's one last is on my favourites list again. ahh the honey vocals.

anyway. havent studied for gothic as much in my whole life as i have done with mar for the past two days. wah its tough. and we went crazy and died seeing kak nab's last year's work.

anyhows. i knew kak jaja was going away to doha but i guess it never really sank in, the fact. okay till i read her blog la. so. sigh. three whole years there. have fun okayyyy kak. while you are at a new place enjoying (or suffering, whichever), we are stuck in old singapore. no more seeing you at nyai's place. who am i supposed to gossip with HUH. dahlah all the abang-abang dont go there anymore. now another one gone. great. and i predict a lot of tears from your mama.

oh yeah. and no more listening to your gossips with all the makciks.

gah.

everyone's going away.

anyway. last sunday was abang fadzli's wedding. it was nice but hell, it was shit tiring.
i love kak yuanna's pelamin though. gorgeous shit la. pity i had no camera so no pics. sigh. anyway. yeah both of them look good together.
ah weddings.

when i was young i used to think that weddings are sent from heaven, nicely made and created.
in other words, i used to think
weddings are free.

anyway some pics from that day.

the girls (minus two).

the superbly cute flowergirls with the groom.

a break for the lovelies (:

one thing's for sure. weddings can both make or break your already-present families. and im glad there was on over the weekend. we needed it to be close again.
i love wak dolah's family haha (:

oceantruth @ 2006-06-20T12:11:00

2006-06-20T04:27:58Z

i hate this keyboard in mlep. i have t pound the keys to key it in. ergh.

anyway is anyone surprised? she conveniently havent finished marking our tests papaers which was dne last mnth. so we'll expect to get it back in 7 mnths time? like death of salesman la. our exam is next week you know. how are we t just go thru the paper on the MORNING before the paper. and stll got the nerve to threaten us to do well. ashbdhywert6q23rt56rtfw2r%%dgy2q63et.

anyway i miss naf nat fai who are enjoying at gylc. bleh you all. and i cant wait fr saturday rg's drama so i can meet the rest again.

my dad saw www.playboysex.com in the laptop browser yesterday. parents were panicking nd started questioning ME. jhqd276`%&@#^ yalah iii surf porn what. lol. no guesses for who went there, that website. though i bet my parents wont accept that their adorable little son is like that.

can school please reopen soon? i'm missing mar naz yanto feeq kpotters and all. okay make that school withut the exams and sorts.

oceantruth @ 2006-06-20T11:56:00

2006-06-20T04:06:39Z

taken off naz's lj.

1) What is the phone brand?
nokia. the glow-in the dark one.

2) What are the last 3 digits of your mobile number?
095

3) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?
"hello hannnna! i cant, gt plans..sorry! ask me sme other day k? ingat tau haha. take care have fun studying!" --> izzah sadface. see she doesnt study haha

4) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
MAG

5) Who's the last person you rang?
mar (wh just woke up when called at 11.20)

6) Who was your last missed call from?
home..

7) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
daddy. i mean. rozi

8) What does the last message in your inbox say?
mar saying she met naz at tamp after lecture which she(naz) ddnt go for. haha

9)Who comes up under J?
jamie. er kay.

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 10th message say?
er. something la.

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?
sahuriya

12) How many messages are currently in your inbox?
32. and i just deleted the whole thing yesterday!

13) What do you have as your background?
blank. my phne is not a camera one yu see. no pcs.

14) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?
robocop

15) Who do you have on speed dial 3?
isk la (: nt that i use it since i never knew.

16) Who's the first person who comes up under C?
as naz puts it. captain planet iskandar. who i just caught being sweeping deb's hair away from her face yesterday fr abt ten times. aww sweet ah our capt.

17) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
all full

18) What do you have as your main ringtone?
er. silent mde. r beep.

bah

oceantruth @ 2006-06-16T13:23:00

2006-06-16T06:44:34Z

i hope the gpa people are doing okay. if the higher authorities screw them, ergh. so much for appreciating efforts. why dont they just get outside group. you are't asking us to perform our old performance. youre asking us to perform a new one.

anyhows. yesterday i saw the hantaran gifts for kak yuanna. kak jaja was eyeing the mac make-up set the whole time and offered to carry that this evening. we all bet that at least one of the make-up will be gone or she will be putting on some on the bus.

but anyway. everyone's getting married these few days. and the hantaran gifts are good.

anyhows manifest is full swing i guess. okay maybe not until panorama is over. but yeah. i can feel it already. and damn hell, its rather worrying.

its really really disturbing to walk down tampines during solat jumaat time to see all these jejaka melayu yang melepak tak buat aper-aper. fine, its a common sight but still. and whats worse is when a group of people you can call pakcik (who obviously works at the airport), some of whom sports jambangs and have bald heads (so you might think of them as alim) melepak kat some shops and wooting and kacauing girls as they walk past when they are supposed to be solat-ing jumaat. . like seriously. dont you have a life. orang bawak laksa dua paket pun nak kener kacau ke per. skali aku simbahkan kat kepala botak kau, padan muker.

and anyway, thank you for spoiling my mood.

aiyoyo khaledddd

2006-06-14T14:03:16Z

tiring day today. i have no idea why.

SI was... sigh. tengku adil's make up was a bit off so sigh. tak se-cute slalu anyway. i thought the roslan guy who sang one last cry was good and sincere. and hady was good as well. and the pink guy is EXACTLY like khai.

sorry khai. you just look a lot like him. whether you like it or not.

baby blues comics are sure lifesavers

la vien en rose

2006-06-13T14:28:18Z

okay as usual, i read some things and see some things missing. and hey,
whats new?
hurt baybeh. just plain hurt.

im the observer.
i walk with people and i observe them, i observe their surroundings,
i observe the people around them.

but you just cant seem to observe yourself, do you?

hello world.
~~padang~~ bukit tinggi ( a province near padang) was heavenly.
nah, its not like your typical amusement parks fun fun fun heaven kind of things (duh, its indon).
its just greenery, the sights and all.
heaven.

so now its a hint for you non-nature lovers to get out of my lj entry cos itll be booooringggg for you.

just to sum up:
bukit tinggi's a city/province near padang. the kampung area is on a mountain (something like that)
so yeah, its COLDDD.
at night sleep dont need air con one its freezing already. it really reminds me of london, the temperature there.
and all around is sawah padi and mountains.

imagine cloud-capped mountains and volcanoes all around you with valleys of kampungs
and sawah padis,
cows,
kerbaus,
kids running here and there, .
everything else that you need to just relax.

heavenly.

thing is. travelling in an area full of mountains equals to winding roads.
and that equals to?
puking.
lots and lots of puking.
sigh.

anyway.
pics up soon.

anyway, me being me, something bad just have to happen right?
so yes. i lost seratusriburupiah (100,000 rupiah) there.
shoot me.
i have no idea how.
i just halalkan whoever that has it.
although you costed me my friends' souvenirs.
so yep, sorry all of you, i cant get anything.

and naz, no cute rich padang guys.
1) i dont like the padang guys (the town ones i mean. since padang is town).
2) not many are rich
oh but i know one of the tour guides i met who are a bit like raja malik. hotter some more. haha.

anyway budget airline planes are fun actually. everyone rushes to get window seats.

okay thats about it for now. more next time.

oh yeah, just a few facts:
1) minangkabau (the name of the people at padang and bukit tinggi area) actually originates from indon okay. not malaysia. the malaysian minangkabau people migrate to malaysia.
2) PADANG IS IN INDON, NOT MALAYSIAAAAAA.

believe me. today two people i met thought padang was in malaysia -______________-

and dada, buncit is mine *evil laughter*
and no, now he just smells of the plane.

090606. 39th.

2006-06-09T04:22:06Z

just came back from kem sastera (: yeah yeah it was a "awak nak join tak?"(cikgu) "hann come la we got extra bed!"(the girls) in the morning itself so after lit consultation i rushed home yesterday before joining them at nacli. left one day early cos im flying off tmr and i didnt wanna miss opening match with my family.

so kem sastera. minus points? its combined. tp + innova. no matter what school, its still bad. ergh. and its worse when they start to yak non stop and fall asleep and being disrespectful. wait, its both school students doing that. disgusting. yeah screw me for saying this but admit it you guys were rude.

not to mention the one who couldnt resist flicking her hair and laugh shrilly and loudly and blowing kisses across the room. oh miss pinkie. ERGH. who do you wanna attract?

anyhows the good stuff! took pics. sat in for the malam pertemuan. very good very nice. about drama skrip and all. all academics aside, hell yeah we had fun. got the cave lodge (the boys got jungle lodge and whatnot). and wah that room is gorgeous and huge. walls which are painted with cave drawings. two toilets. seven matresses on platforms. wasted no time in pinpointing which stick cavemen figures and animal drawings on the wall is who. as usual i got the extra long figure while marya got the biggest animal (HAH). am? the stick cavemen figures with sun rays on his head. enlightenment konon.

so being all girls, what else, it was vain galore hah. hair curling all around. modelling in our room since we have a raised platform. comparing cleavages. making fun of firda's hoarse voice. making marya cry TWICE due to stealing her stripey and watching love me if you dare. watched it twice (again) (: bingeing out, talk shit, play uno talk shit, talk non stop and finally falling asleep facing the wall hoping i wouldnt dream of stick cavemen hunting for food.

in the morning. nad woke am up. am greeted her with a kaninacheebye. everyone had tug of war with marya who refused to wake up and simply tonggek more, shows her butt and snores back. shes worse than a kid i swear. and apparently that is nothing compared to her other days.

oh and who can forget, the orgy dada had with all the stuffed toys.

you just cant help loving these small people + dada in your life. thanks for inviting me you kepotters.

now to drag myself to start packing for the trip to padang.

how can i walk away
i dont care what they say
i'm loving you anyway

oceantruth @ 2006-06-06T09:45:00

2006-06-06T02:01:12Z

officially, ive deleted the earlier entry. gone, zero, nada, takde.

anyhows on a lighter note. ain's place is huge. maybe not as huge as other's, but it is still wow to me. 401 gathering was good. people never ever change, from their nyonya style all down to their apek style. cleo is gorgeous though. ah well.

so shikin got engaged last saturday. there were so many hantarans that haled's side gave her its like a marriage pulak. lucky bitch. it was amusing seeing her all stressed up though. kesian but hey, she's happy.

oceantruth @ 2006-06-02T22:15:00

2006-06-02T14:46:43Z

jc life either makes your holidays boring or not holidays at all.

ive been reading lots of archie comics lately. oh the early days when we have so much free time.

my cousin's getting engaged tmr (if its of any help, shes 18). i dont know to call her lucky or not.

for you maths people, relax ya. at least your results are out. you dont have to wonder anymore. whether good or bad, hey, its only CTs. can always improve. so cheers k (:

i dont know your name but
excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room